Being psychological,
spiritual, and physically developed begins with where I want to be. Where I am
in life as of now doesn’t mean I am happy, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t
have the power to change that. As a person who has always been physically
active all my life, I never developed the spiritual and psychological aspect of
my life. I am a thinker, I think as much as I can about every subject and I
often get lost in my thoughts, thus separating from myself. I also do not
believe in any higher power, I dance to the sound of my own drum so I often find
myself not too spiritual. The goals I have for myself include becoming one with
myself. Really learning to love myself with no regrets. I want to end this
fight and begin a new relationship where I am able to solve problems with ease
and handle the stresses in life with an open mind.
Health wise I know I have a long way to go. I scored
myself originally in unit 3 as a 5 psychologically, I know that my own thoughts
can bring toxicity to my body. People learn to live off their thoughts as the
truth. Thinking negative thoughts about myself brings my self esteem down. It
brings my self confidence down as well as my positive outlook on things more
important. I begin to doubt my capabilities and forget to remember that none of
my thoughts make a difference in my life unless I change it myself. I never
would have figured that the way I think psychologically could have such an
impact on my health. I began to have massive headaches in the back of my head
one day, my shoulders always hurt and my back pain surfaced. I went to the
doctors once because I thought there was something wrong with me but it turned
out it was just stress. I wasn’t handling the stress correctly, instead I was
letting it stay inside and getting worse. I remember my doctor saying, “You
need to learn how to manage your stress, try relaxing your shoulders more, you
seem to be too tense.” My first thought was, “so there’s nothing wrong, wrong
with me? It’s just stress?” I could not understand how something simple as
stress was affecting my body so much. I was out of practice, psychologically,
how to handle stress. What thoughts I should have been thinking and how to turn
negatives into positives. Instead I reacted to the pain in my body and the
thoughts in my head into negative, negative, negative. “You’re fat, you always
be alone, you will never succeed” those were thoughts inside my head I could
not shake.
In unit 3 I scored
myself for spirituality as a 5 as well. I have never been much into spiritual
sense. I am more concerned about waking up to do the things on my to-do list
then worrying about being spiritually connected to myself. This is probably why
I am not succeeding in loving myself. I am not a very religious person. I never
have been because it always felt like I had to fake like I enjoyed going to
church. I have always been the type of person to do things when I wanted to and
not when I was told. So when my mother put me into catechism classes I was
reluctant to go because I did not enjoy it and it bored me. For me, if a class
I had bored me, I did not pass or barley passed during school. Being close to
prayer like others are will probably never be a part of me. I need to learn to
be more spiritual with myself.
I scored myself for physical wellbeing at a 7. Looking
back at unit 3 and where I am now with this class has made me change my mind
with my physical wellbeing. I would like to change it to a 4-5. This is partly
because I began working out with a fitness group and I am realizing now that I
have never taken proper care of my eating habits. This affects my workouts
because my body isn’t working off of the proper nutrition and energy. Once I
master how to make better choices in food, eating at the right times and the
proper portions is when I could raise the score on my physical wellbeing.
My goals for becoming more spiritual is listening more to
my intuition and sixth sense. If something doesn’t feel right when making a
decision, then I should listen to my inner self and then make my decision from
then. I do not want to create any doubt at all in my final decisions. My goals
for being more psychologically healthy, is to keep away the negative thoughts and
not worry about what others think of me. I need to stay as true to myself as
much as I can in order to be happy. The last goal in being physically healthy
is maintaining my eating choices and continuing to exercise. Not only do I want
to look good, but I want to live as long as I can with as less complications
with health as long as possible.
Strategies to keep me focused on my goals, is having
support. I believe it is always best to have support from your loved ones in
everything you do in life. Sometimes life gets you down and you do not know who
to turn to. You go to your mother and father and all they have to do is say a
few words of encouragement and your back on your path to success. That is the
power of support. For me, each subject (spiritual, physical, and psychological)
just needs support. When you are struggling or fighting with yourself and how
to be happy, that support is there to remind you not to give in to negative
thoughts. To always look for a positive for every negative. When you get sick
because you haven’t taken care of your health having the support of loved ones
can increase the want to get better physically. You have more of discipline and
focus. When you’re constantly fighting your negative thoughts and depression
sometimes a night out with a loved one could bring it all back into perspective
and help you realize, that there are bigger problems out there than your life
alone. To always be thankful and appreciate the things in life and what life
brings you since the day you arrived until the day you leave this world.
I will make sure I am pin pointing each domain in my
spiritual life, physical and psychological wellbeing. Staying true to me and
what I stand for in life is only the beginning of an adventure waiting for me.
I want to live past my 80’s and I can’t do that alone without making sure my
mind is as sharp as it is being 22 years old now. I need to remember to listen
to my body and my heart when I am hurting and understand why bad things happen
sometimes. I will learn to channel that hurt and anger to loving kindness.
Forgive my enemies and people that have hurt me because I can’t take my grudges
with me when I leave, so why have them now? Knowing that my grandparents have
lived as long as they have they figured out the secret to a happy marriage and
a domestic life. Yes they argue like cats and dogs, but I know they don’t have
any regrets in life and are comfortable that they raised their children with
the right morals, responsibilities and hearts to keep the family going. Taking
care of my health will be the most important aspect because without me around,
my son wouldn’t be taken care of. I have so much to live for in this short
amount of time I am here, so I must make the best of it by taking care of my
health in every way possible. I play softball and I plan on playing it as long as
I can. Softball is my escape from reality to do something I was made for. It
keeps me sane and relaxes me and even takes stress away from life. I am only 22
years young. I have so much more stress and life to go through to realize in
the end, if I took care of myself properly with mental fitness. I guess we will
never know until we get there right? Until then, all I have is the knowledge
from this class. I will pass as much information as I can to others to spread
the word of proper health maintenance.
