life being a new mom

Well so far being a single mom at the age of 19 is going smooth. I try to see everyday as a new adventure since the baby grows more each day. It gets tough considering that I don't have the right amount of money to do what I need to survive, but I have been lucky enough to still be on my feet. I am home everyday with the baby and the only thing I do is watch tv, take care of the baby, do homework, take care of the baby, do laundry, eat, and take care of the baby...its kind of sad that its all I do. Sometimes I wish I could have something to do besides this but I know it is my responsibility. The same subject comes up about the baby knowing his father. When things are complicated its so hard to decide what to do in tough situations that I know can't solve its self. What should I tell him. I know I cant lie to him and make him think someone else is his father. I don't want him to resent me when he gets to the age where he can understand why his father isn't around. My mother says it doesn't matter if his father is in his life because he is loved and that is all that matters. I believe that to. Tell me what you guys think! =)

my labor

Recently I had my baby boy on January 13th, 2010. I was told what labor would be like but I didn't imagine that mine would be so hard. I ended up being in labor for 4 days. It started with minor contractions and then they got stronger, I was told I was only 1 centimeter dialated for 3 days. I went into the hospital 2 times in one night in pain and with contractions every 3-5 minutes apart but they still did not admit me. The next day, after stying up all night with level 8 contractions, I went into a normal appointment and was told I was really 3 centimeters dialated for a while. I was shocked and because I was so tired and malnutritioned from staying up all night I had to get the epideral even though my birth plan was without one. In the end the nurses that helped me were telling me the wrong information and I had a safe labor before it got really bad. That was one of my challenges I will never ever forget.